Thursday, December 11, 2008

GLORY AND GUTWRENCH


     It's been a while since I really wrote a "lucid" post.  We just finished our EP.  What a feeling.  This is my first album, so it feels like a nice little token of all the work that we have done so far.  We kept it honest too.  The EP is essentially the first songs that we ever did.  They're raw, grimy, and the breakfast of champions.  It feels good.  And since we finished that up, we are now full steam ahead on finishing the full length album, which will be even tastier!
     The rather glorious and gutwrenching aspect of all this beautiful art stuff, is that it (aside from "the man") may be the leading cause of poverty.  The glorious part is how exhilarating it feels to throw yourself headfirst into the abyss.  The gutwrenching part is the fear, stress, and hunger that it gives you.  But on the upside, all of the gutwrench only fuels me further.  So it's quite the sick little cycle I've gotten myself into.

     I'm lovin' it!

-DION VOX

Thursday, November 20, 2008

CHAPTER MASTER

I am my chapter master.  I get to decide when they end, and when they begin.  But I think that the rest of the world is my editor, because they always seem willing to give me their feedback and demands.  But I am still the writer.

             The beginning of every chapter starts out feeling burdened, lost, and open.  Like a widow in debt, leaving it all behind as she walks out into the naked desert.  All of the pain and fear, exhaustion, stress, they’re all still in her as she leaves the edge of town; and for the first few days after they will remain.  But as time slips by, so does their strength as they disintegrate and degenerate like a bad perfume, leaving only the wild and gaudy bases of the fragrance.  Once unmasked, even these are discarded as tacky in their very essence.  And every step is available to be enjoyed, interacted with, changed, investigated, laughed at, let go of.  As far as her eyes can see, open.

            Then there’s the middle.  Sheer love of being in the thick of it.  Sheer love, up to her elbows in the beautiful, tangled mess that she has created as her playground.  The desert is no longer blank, but hers.  She inhabits it, lives, breathes, eats, sleeps, cries, and sings it all in and out. A tidal ebb and flow that knows no end.  And everything that is touched by her receives the flow of her love as she releases it.  She has gone from the cold planet of her town, to creating a sun for herself, in herself, around herself.  Constantly charging, exploding, reasimilating itself.  The middle to her, is the pure glory of her heart.

            The end is a sad, slow, burnout.  From a white dwarf to a red giant.  She has touched everything that she needed to know.  Loved everything that had a lesson to teach her.  And consumed every last scrap around her that had been left by the chaos, digesting it for its worth, and burying the rest.  Everyone’s long gone, and no one’s coming back.  They took all of the light with them, and suddenly the light inside her that seemed infatigable with its radiance, is dull, dying, sputtering out.  She’s a dying widow, once again.  Nothing left to lose but herself.  It’s either abandonment to a quiet death, just the sand and her body, or to take one last look at the rubble of the city that she built for all that she loved before she moves on again.  Out into the open. 

-DION VOX

Thursday, October 23, 2008

WANDERLUST

These urchin spines
Have pierced the gauze
I kept to catch
A tearful pause
It tears at me
With velvet claws
Caresses me
With aching jaws
This bind is deep
With riddled laws
Cold compress won't
Cool down the thaw
Glacial warbles
Sing like saws
With words so cordial
Sting me raw

I'm leaking my secrets
Into doorsteps worth keeping
And praying to doormats
That no one is peeking
I sing to myself
But it sounds just like shrieking
I'd care 'bout my health
If it wasn't defeating

Bones can't hold up this frame that is waning
My throne's been stolen and fear is gaining
I'm strung out of tune in a song that's refraining
I'm dancing on petals to the rhythm that's raining

Drip, drip, drip, from my eyes
I grip, grip, grip, for the skies
I'm ripped, ripped, ripped, by what died
So I trip, trip, trip, when I try

Keys jingle-jangle, aristocrat chain
I'm fit to mangle, 'cause I'm used to pain
Feeling the strangle, I try to stay sane
Medicine dangles, and melts out in rain

And I don't care what the seasons say it is
And I don't care why reason prays
And I don't care what act this play is in
I'm only feeling when I stray

I measure time by lack of sleep
I measure moments by when I weep
I measure sadness by when I breath
I measure madness by what I see

Hands fly by on a measured face
Their fingers spelling clues that I cannot trace
Three palms sculpting out what they won't replace
And their nails etching out such an empty fate
Clappin' their hands with a heavy weight
Givin' me time that don't fit my gait
Prayin' to the clock for an empty slate
But it's knockin' on my door keepin' me awake

Wanderlust commands my soul
I'm a leather tramp with a rubber soul
I keep my head in the stormy shoals
And I keep my heart in a box of gold

Down, down, down, I go
Drown, drown, drown, sorrow
I, am, crowned, by what I know
Always losing when I grow.

-DION VOX

Thursday, September 25, 2008

song lyrics for CATALYST

I’ve got a secret that I won’t tell

Drag me and beat me and make my life hell

But I’ve got a secret and I’ll guard it well

‘Cause with this small whisper I’ll taint all your wells.

 

I’ll drip drip drip, to the bottom of the barrel

Seeing cities full of feral people, everyone sees sex in steeples

 

Rose petals with heavy metals

Mercury on high decibels

Credible inedible

Unleaded and unshreadable

 

The shadows darken my heart hearkens arkham plated farcity

Coral shaman heal my wounds with feathered wing-tombs as agreed

Anchor me low so all my thoughts flow like bubbles in the sea

When they bury me in white sheets tuck me in with flowers please

Drink my head

Down to the bottom

Words feel like cotton

My soul is rotten

 

Dandy baby

Oh won’t you please

Reach out your hand for me

My song’s forgotten

 

Catalyst, I want you

Catalyst, I want you

 

I’ve got this secret deep inside of me

Hammer and trigger to this killing spree

And I’ve got this secret deep inside of me

It gestates and rotates and wants to get free

 

I’ll drip drip drip, to the bottom of the barrel

Seeing cities full of feral people, everyone sees sex in steeples

 

Hydroponic, supersonic, snail oil tonic, in this bonnet

Cannot put your finger on it, all our pain is so symphonic

 

Your plastic pitches give me stitches

Burning witch hypocracy

Bitches brew we’re in this too

They lead us through their recipe

All life drowned hell fire on ground

It’s scapegoat culpability

 

Catalyst, I want you

Catalyst, I want you

Catalyst, I want you

 

Catalyst, I want you

Catalyst, I want you

Catalyst, I want you

 

 

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Blue Grass Baby

For all of the right reasons, and none of the wrong, we have decided to scrap the "killing time" video, and start anew with
something that works better for what we want to accomplish. Not that "killing time" isn't wicked, but I think we all wanted to do something
a little different. So we've chosen a new song, in fact, it's the latest song that we've done. It's called "Home sweet Home". I
initially liked the instrumental because it was beautiful, and so unlike anything that I had ever written to. I looked at it as a
brilliant challenge, and a righteous kick in the ass. What came out of it was even more beautiful than I thought I would be able to make 
of it. As far as all that is concerned, I figure, as long as I keep surprising myself, I'm doin' good.
But what I loved most about doing this song, is that it allowed me to revisit a bit of a mental era that I was in when I was younger.
When I was 8 years old, my brother and I were staying the night at a family friend's house. Growing up, music was everywhere, and these
friends owned a music store, so the house was filled with instruments. But I was the only girl there, so it was hard to play with the boys
all the time. So the "mom" suggested that I go visit their neighbor. She was an old woman who lived alone just down the block from them.  
I knocked on her door, and she let me in and proceeded to give me a violin lesson. It was awesome, especially because growing up, one 
of the first tapes that I ever owned was a kids mystery set around Vivaldi music and about his Stradivarius violin. So I had a bit of
a crush on classical violin music already.
When my parents came to pick us up, I had been converted. I wanted violin lessons! A few months later, on my ninth birthday, I
woke up early (we were living in this crazy farm-house that was rented as a duplex at the time)and went into the living room. I was then
presented with a music stand and a violin (luckily my folks had rented it, and not bought it...). Then my mom told me that she had
signed me up for lessons. I was hella jazzed!
So I show up to my first violin lesson, it's at this woman's house on the island that we were living on. There were goats in the
yard, and I immediately recognized my new teacher as the woman who had organized the geology club that I had joined in second grade.
She was clog dancing on her porch.
 
I was pissed.

I thought that I would be playing Vivaldi, but what I was really signed up for was fiddle lessons.
 
But I figured I might as well stick with it at least past the "hot cross buns" and "twinkle twinkle little star" phase and see
what came of it. I made it as far as "old joe clark".
But what turned out so great about the whole thing was that my dad was drumming in a bluegrass band. bluegrass doesn't
usually have drumming, so this style was nicknamed "grab-ass" which as a nine year old, was funny, 'cause it had the word ass in it.
I was enamored by the lyrics in their songs, and many of them were sung by a woman. It was my first introduction to that kind of
beautiful destitution that bluegrass seems to sing about.
Well, that Halloween, my dad's band played at a big party at our friends house (oddly enough, the friends were the same people who had
introduced me the the neighbor that gave me a violin lesson). And even though I had just quit fiddle, I still knew "old joe clark"
which was in their set list. So I got to play an instrument for the first time in a gig!
The point of all of this rambling, is that the words that that band sang, left a really strong impression in my mind. I was an odd
kid, and they made beautiful sense to me. All of that was were I went in my head when I wrote the lyrics for "Home Sweet Home".
So there's the inside scoop folks. The song isn't up on any sites yet, but keep your ears peeled, 'cause it's coming soon!

Signing off as your Salty Dog,

-Dion Vox

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Shiny and New

Here are some bullet points of new things that I have an opinion about:

*We just started shooting our music video a few nights ago.  So far it's wicked-awesome looking.  

*The alarm didn't go off on my phone, and consequentially I was late to work AND got a parking ticket.  LAME.

*I just sent off the article I wrote for rocknrolldating.com, hopefully he likes it.

*Cockroaches and rotting wood are a terrifying combination.  Neighbors with the sense of a hospitable petri dish bring some really creepy-crawly friends around.  I'm not into it.

*Franchise Tax is stupid, and while it may be less confusing than regular taxes (because I, or my company rather, has to pay $800 no matter what)it is also quite the enigma.  Only, the enigma part is where the hell I'm going to come up with the 800 in a month.  BUMMER.

*Well, other than the show on Oct. 2nd that is coming up, I can't think of anything else other than my undying love for coffee and cigarettes.  But for the sake of making this post look fancier, I decided to make this a bullet point as well.

so long.
 
-Dion Vox

Monday, September 8, 2008

The Ol' Day Job

Well, I'm gearing up to go to the ol' day job tomorrow morning.  Yeah, I've still got one... although hopefully not for too much longer.  Here's my "favorite" quote from my last shift:
     "You're such a good servant.  You're so submissive."
This was said to me by a dirty old man as I refilled his coffee cup.
Bullshit.

Oh well, at least it beats being homeless again :)
Right?

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-DION VOX



Saturday, September 6, 2008

Baptized By Fire

     Baptized by Fire, this is how I seem to operate.  All I know is that I don't know anything until I experience it.  I have never had a blog, before this band, I had never written a song.  I like to keep the "first experience" count hight in my book.  There's just too much out there to keep my fingers off it all.  But of course, taste and discretion are what dictates what really goes in my "book", and so whatever makes it's way out of my brain into something tangible is gonna reflect that.  I don't know if this is my manifesto,  or just a rambling.  But I've got to get this started somehow.  
     This coming week we are shooting our first music video for our song "Killing Time".  I'm beyond jazzed about it, especially because of who we will be working with.  Greg Kudanovych is brilliant in everything that he does (check out his website, the man made it himself too, that's why it's so brilliant at: www.fourthdensity.com).  Like a lot of other things, this is my first music video, so I can't wait to see what comes of it.
     My voice is also about to come out on Pat's Justice's debut album "Live From The Struggle" on the track "scream and shout".  If ya wanna, you can hear it on Scobra's myspace: myspace.com/scobra2005.  That night we stayed up 'till the wee hours of the morning, all scribbling our lyrics out madly and finally feeling free for even just one moment from grief.  It was the first track that I think any of us (Pat's Justice, Bobby, All Red, or myself) had done since the murder of CC and Show Time.
     Music is the Museum, my Words are the Painting, and my Voice will set it Off.
        SHAZAM

-DION VOX