keepin' on

     Well, the road to hell may be paved with good intentions... but I would like to think that so is the road to heaven.  The Blog and I... an unlikely pair, and yet meant for each other.  I actually think that once I get into the habit of blogging, there will be no stopping me.  But habits take some acquiring, and that has been my modus  operandi  as of late:  trying to acquire new habits.
     I have lived my whole life pushing myself to my limits.  Lovely growth has occurred in such an environment, but also some monumental crashes and failures.  It all goes hand in hand I suppose.  However, for the first time in my tender young life, I can feel myself aging.  Rather, I'm not sure that I could do some of the things that I used to.  Where the hell did I get that energy?  I still pride myself in my current work ethic... until I look at my old work ethics that I have had in the past.  There was A LOT more energy wasted, or misplaced, or exhausted.  But it was still there.  Now I would like to think that I am a little more discerning with my energy, but it is starting to appear more finite to me (or perhaps time really is just speeding up, as I also suspect!).
     So in recognition this limitation that I have discovered, I am trying to get my behind back in gear.  New habits, new health, and then hopefully - new energy.  In short:  forgive my while I stumble and bumble about a bit as I try to get this train rolling at top speed.  I have never done it on purpose before.  And things are always harder when they are meant to be.

-Dion Vox